ZiddaneLegend

2009-12-22T10:48:00.000+08:00

Apparently,something is wrong wif the blog...and I dont know how to fix it...dam

2009-12-22T10:46:00.001+08:00

After this long break,im back...duh=.="
The holiday had been 'great' as usual....just like any holiday I ever had...but im quite glad that it is that way...so,i realise tat I can achieve a lot if I really want...will update my goals and expectations of next year some time later...like after christmas...cuz I cant use com now and I dont like the idea of typing a 500 word essay using my handphone...(neither does my phone...i suppose...)
So...cya....

2009-10-31T15:10:00.000+08:00

feeling so troubled....why must shiyao and
jiajun be so.....now see lar i must do this
....so diffcult and troubled...its like...
talking to a stranger whom you know for 3
years in the same tuition class and never
talked to....isnt this some super weird
thing and isnt it awkward?its like........
why am i talking to a person whom is a
stranger kind of people???????????????????/

im feeling retarded right now...

2009-10-06T16:36:00.001+08:00

absolutely nothing to post at all......maybe i will get better after the exams......but i just dont feel like writing......

2009-07-30T16:07:00.003+08:00

Today's maths and science was a breeze...
hope that the scores are like the rainbows
high up in the sky.....

After sch on the MRT,with shiyao..............
we saw this RJ guy taking the reserved
seat which was meant for the elderly........
then without thinking,or maybe with some
thinking,i said:鄙视他............

Then when he was going to alight......which
is also when i was going to alight........he came
to find me....and then asked me why i said
that and if i had a problem with him seating
on the seat........then i said no then he say that
it is an insult to him then i said sorry then he
warned us to mind our language in public areas.

then i alighted.......he alighted too..................
i felt a bit angry....not that i am angry towards
him....i was angry at myself,of not being able to
express my opinions properly and i was angry
that i could not find weakness in his questions
immediately and state my views clearly and
i was super angry at my weak behavior...........
which doesnt reach the standard expected......

of course,i am not the kind of person who talk
nonsense on public transport. However it was
just because i happened to see a show on the
television afew days ago....which talked about
a korean guy who went to singapore and was
shocked to see the reserved seats taken by
people who do not need it as much..................
he was saying : in korea it was like if theres
no elderly on the train,the reserved seats remains
empty....no one will even seat there no matter
how crowded it is on the train........

so why am i writing this?I wrote this just to
remind myself that i am going to research
more about the reserved seatings on the MRT
and i am going to come up with a counter argument
........not that i feel 不爽,its just that i feel that i should
know more about that area of knowledge since
i feel that i would need them...since i don't know...

how i wish i could be critical about it and show him
my stand in this matter and just let this thing end...
but i was too lousy and weak....
in other words, 不堪一击...........
AS IF I WANT THAT TO HAPPEN!I AM
NOT THE KIND OF PEOPLE WHO ARE
SO PROUD AND THEY THINK THAT
THEY ARE THE BEST IN THE WORLD.
IM JUST SAD THAT I COULDNT ACHIEVE
WHAT I WANT TO...COULDNT LIVE UP
TO THE EXPECTATIONS OF MANY.....
COULDNT BE WHAT I WANT TO BE.

AS IF I WANT ALL THIS TO HAPPEN...
I DONT.....I NEED HELP,GUIDENCE AND
SOME SUPPORT,PROBABLY,i am the
support+hope=victory kind of person.......
and i haven had hope since pri6 and i could
really feel the support anymore.................
i just need someone to tell me what i should
do,to guide me,give me a push and i will
soar!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friends always said that i wasnt serious in
my work and i give crap for my homework
and i dont study for my tests and i dont care
about studying and thats why i dont do well

And this,is not true...not true at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i couldnt do the homework because i did not
know how to do them and i dont want to give
lousy retarded ans on my paper......................
i dont study for my tests????how would you
know?I study a lot for the tests........its just
that because i lack the basic understanding
i was slower than everyone else when we start!
trust me i dont want to be like that,i want to
be the old me again.....for those who dont know
me in the past,pls pardon me for my inability
to explain it to you,cuz i am currently feeling
like flaming,i could even feel that the flame in
me is burning my heart every second..........
the kind of bad and lousy and powerless feeling,
you wont like it

i suppose i should be gone,cuz i still have to get
the OC presentation ready+ the RE stuff+ the
geog stuff,all by today+theres tuition today and i
have to go....cuz i need to get myself refreshed
and get some hope to transform them into
courage to face my work.....and the scoldings from
the teachers.......perharps i could ask mrs selvan
about the argument on the reserved seating thingy
lastly,bye....................................................................

2009-07-26T13:55:00.000+08:00

After so long,im back to post again..........
cuz there is just too much emoness...........
so i have to empty them....and my choice is
here.

i felt really retarded today,having to finish
a geog PT without a slight idea of how to do
it....then i switched on the com....and suddenly,
thought of the game which i used to play.....
which is sadly....maplestory........
a game which had took up most of my pri6 year,
a game which had guided me through the super boring
days........

i visited the site,and there were many changes..
it made me flash back again,of those happy moments
.i remember,when i first play the game,i felt the
magical feeling,it enlightened me.i remember,the
first time,i got cheated in the game,of the only
few thousands of mesos i had....the kind of
desperation and anger i felt....i remember,the first
time when i found a really good friend online.....
the kind of feeling was what i had never had.
It made me reflect upon the past,of my pri sch life,
how wonderful it is,i always had a dream,to pursue
the best of the best.What happened to it?I dont know.

i always loved the game,if not for the many things
which is too true in life...power,greed,rudeness and
many more........even job employment.

thats that...i dont want to talk more about it......
cya everyone.
if you could get me to face the game with no more pain.

2009-06-24T11:31:00.002+08:00

|或许我不该|
或许我不该悲观绝望
或许我不该感到悲伤
因为这一切都是人生的一部分
因为这一切只是人生的一部分

人生；
人生还有许多正面的事情等待着我
等我去发现；去追求；去努力做

可是；
可是这一切都是人生的一部分
可是这一切只是人生的一部分
可是这一切还是属于人生
这一切还是影响着我
—————————————————————————

刚发现了一首还可以激励现在的我的老歌
它的名字叫做『传说』
by 5566.。。。。。。。
多少年了，
当我再次听到这首歌
我又一次感到那沸腾的热血
仿佛回到了当年
那种处于巅峰的自信与冷静
但却又期望挑战
仿佛又回到那种精神的顶端
『战；我无不克』
『学；我无不精』
『斗；我从不放弃』
『普通；我追求力量』
那就是当年的我。

歌词：

站在寂寞街头吹来一阵狂风
[00:40.57]胸口燃起了一股的莫名冲动
[00:42.81]月亮太阳和我的死对头
[00:45.67]我的字典没有半个No
[00:48.65]是非不分让人难以忍受
[00:50.58]黑白不明你想　搞些什么
[00:53.05]黑压压人群紧握他的拳头
[00:55.58]看我到底何时要出手
[00:57.89]I want more
[00:59.54]时间它一分一秒　
[01:01.13]不断考验折磨着我
[01:03.33]擦掉那汗水准备突破重围
[01:08.26]聚合我所有勇气　
[01:10.26]冲破极限超越自我
[01:13.04]传说就要再次出现
[01:17.99]
[01:22.29]我的嘴巴喷出了熊熊烈火
[01:24.59]我这个无名小卒决不低头
[01:27.00]就算再累也要　一拼到最后
[01:29.37]谁能了解我的心里渴求
[01:32.10]想当英雄就得要的更多
[01:34.09]等待像变色龙让我猜不透
[01:36.64]你问我到底心中要些什么
[01:39.18]我的天敌竟然就是我
[01:42.27]时间它一分一秒　
[01:44.12]不断考验折磨着我
[01:47.01]擦掉那汗水准备突破重围
[01:52.00]聚合我所有勇气　
[01:53.80]冲破极限超越自我
[01:56.74]传说就要再次出现
[02:09.85]
[02:23.48]时间它一分一秒　
[02:25.34]不断考验折磨着我
[02:28.23]擦掉那汗水准备突破重围
[02:33.02]聚合我所有勇气　
[02:35.02]冲破极限超越自我
[02:38.00]传说就要再次出现
[02:44.11]时间它一分一秒　
[02:45.92]不断考验折磨着我
[02:48.88]擦掉那汗水准备突破重围
[02:53.61]聚合我所有勇气　
[02:55.72]冲破极限超越自我
[02:58.41]传说就要再次出现

2009-06-16T11:26:00.000+08:00

this is the 2nd ver of what i am feeling like,
sadly,the orginal one,which is much better than
this one,was lost due to how2unblock.com hanged.
hope this not so orginal feeling of mine could
express myself proper.

我真的好想对你说爱你
可我的懦弱与平庸不许。
因为有你，我不断挑战过去
希望能以新的自己面对你

因为有你送给我的翅膀
使我再次拥有希望；
再次飞翔

如果爱情就像火炬那就让它使我凝聚
把我带往绝地我才会完全觉醒
实现我自己;
追求完美的传奇|追求传奇与奇迹

因为你，我不断努力
可等待我的却只是心灵的无力
我已无力追求奇迹与传奇
只好自我掩埋在过去。

因为爱你，我宁愿折下自己的翅膀
送给你，让你航向你梦想的天堂
而心酸、寂寞都汇集我胸膛
月夜下悲伤|月色下悲伤
我不愿做阻挡你的墙
只想做远远看护的月光
看着你翱翔

2009-06-09T10:34:00.000+08:00

ok....so....china students finished their university exam（whateva)
i see the 作文topics i want to die liao...i can only do the beijing
topic....if i take it in china i confirm kana 0 mark..............

felt dam scared at the same time relieved...cuz i no ned take......
but yet...i felt that there is really a must to study harder cuz i
have the opportunity to....unlike many others........

.....ok,i am inproving but the speed of my improvment is too slow
to be happy about.....

basically,life is still the same xcept for that there is a strong
hope for life and energy which i had lost...and never since found..

ok lar,im not in the mood to talk,maybe this is all for today......

2009-06-02T21:11:00.000+08:00

i feel very troubled and uncertain abt
life.I felt really pressured by myself
for not able to achieve my goals.

i just felt:when could i have a holiday?
a long holiday,where i could let me
just be myself.......................

im tired of almost everything.
Yes,i love flute,
i agree that i love FPS games too
not to mention my studies,
those subjects which i had been friends
with since so many years ago..........
i love my countries too,
born and spend the first 7 years
of my life in china,
it had a emotional bond with me,
stayed in singapore since pri1,
singapore is just like my second home,
though i always knew that my school
mates never treat me like one of their own.
yet i enjoyed staying there,
if someone is to tell me that from
now on i could not go back to that wonderful
country which i had so much memories
which i held so dear,
i couldnt bear.
i just couldnt,and that,is for china
as well.

i always liked flute,FPS game,and study.
but theres always a time where you feel
that you couldnt take it anymore.
this is my limit(or maybe not)

i couldnt play flute as per normal as the
'thing' that is growing on my lips seriously
changed the height where i usually put my
flute and most of the time i just couldnt
make any sound at all.
This is painful.

FPS?被虐可不是我能接受的,i can now become MVP
if i am lucky...though my records are bad lar..
28 kills with 28 deaths,first in the game,
followed by someone who joined halfway through
the game and had a 27-3 kill-death ratio.....

i dont want to say more about studies.

lets get to another topic which i wanted to talk
abt.

i went back to china,in hope to find a cure for
my 心病,i thought that if i go back to the place
i had my deepest memories and happiness i could
go a bit near to the state of mind which i had
when i was in pri 3.
when i was hopeful about life and believed if i
work hard enough,i could overcome anything.

which i dont believe any more.
and i am trying to find that lost emotion in me
again,because i found that it is the one thing
that drived me to work hard.

i thought that if i feel more of the chinese
students' attitude towards studying and be
closer to the chinese students, then i could
find my lost hope again.

i guess i am both right and wrong.
when i see the chinese students,walking on the
street,in couples or 3s,4s even 5s or more,
i started to feel really emo,i began to think
why couldnt i be a part of them?i have the right
too,i am born here too,why must i be without
friends when they could have so many friend?

i began to think,is it really worth for me to
go to singapore in the first place,giving up
my everything which i could get in china.
Yes,i admit that if i stay in china,
i will probally become one of those gangsters
on the street or something,
or i will just be this aberage people who
have no future.

but yet,i felt that really,its a bit too much
for me,when i see the students,i just felt
that i shoudl be a part of them,i should
just be like them,having my own friends,
worrying about the national exam which would
decide on which high school i will go to.

i want to be like them,playing basketball,
table tennis,go to the snack shop which is
near the school to buy some snacks to eat,
hang around in school with friends during
the lunch break.

not to mention that you could cycle to school,
this is a really wonderful thing which i
always wanted to try.cycle to school.....
how great and wonderfull would that be?

suppose this is all which i wasnt to say today...
more on 2mr i suppose.

2009-05-28T15:33:00.000+08:00

i wonder what should i post?...
there r some stuff which i
shouldnt post and thee are
also stuff which i dont want
to post....so.....what could i
do then?

had maths tuition 2day...the
teacher not bad....but he is
just too messy...ops...i mean
his handwriting is messy,not
his hair......

then while waiting for french
teacher to come....i went to
search and compare some
different model of handphone.
cuz my mom want to change
our phones plans.............
then in the end i couldnt decide
on which one to choose......
then i was told that only
5 out of the 16 models are
0 dollars....and the rest mah
...those while i really liked
were like more than 200+ and
that of cuz...is too much for
me....

i asked my mom for her opinion,
she told me i could buy which
eva i like,i felt really troubled,
i want to get the model i like
but at the same time not to make
my mom feel burdened..........
in the end,i just told her:"
妈，这几款我都挺喜欢的，你帮我选吧，
等我回去的时候在告诉我，给我一个惊喜。”

i felt quite weird when i said
this...cuz of this:希望越大，失望越大，
so i just decided that i should
just make it a surprise for myself,
which eva one she chose.........
at least better than my 4 year old
phony rit?thats a + point....^^

2009-05-27T19:54:00.000+08:00

argh......just come back first day...
cannot practise flute liao...........
got a big pimple growing on the edge
of my lips.....just press my lips
on the lip plate hurts like some.....

i wonder what happened in sch?.......

2009-05-27T18:27:00.000+08:00

...so im in china now...and i still
can use blogger...so....Hahahaa
i can use blogger in china hahahaha..
ya...basically....i cant say anything
that happened cuz it will make
johnson 's mind go pervertic......
not as if his mind is not pervertic
at the moment currently...
haha....so bb....

2009-05-26T20:04:00.001+08:00

so...i will be flying in a few hours time
so...cya everyone....wont be posting in
china...cuz they block blogger.............
wish me good luk and enjoy my trip.
ty..bb

2009-05-24T22:12:00.002+08:00

frens are getting emo...what could i say?
...just dont feel bad lar...enjoy urself,life
is still long and unknown...anything is
possible...though i am also one of those
who cannot no see through the veil of
life..............
i can just say,when every hope has left
you,theres still me,someone hu share
the same problem and could understand
yet could become strong when he need
to,to help his frens out,to take the
responsiblity..............................................

Legend.

2009-05-24T00:18:00.002+08:00

while it was CS lesson some day ago,a fren was
surfing the net against Mrs chor's permission...
like anyone doesnt do that lor......

then he told me about Maplestory II.................
3D and stuff.....and said that he is getting a bit
interested in trying the new ver out..................
and ask me if i wana play wif him....what i said
is obvious,NO!......i told him that i was bored of
that game and i hav lose hope in it......................
but the truth us actually........................................

It reminds me of some sweet innocent but yet
painful and stuff like that which happened in
the game in the past.........

this time,unforturnately,its still abt relationship,
however,this is online relationship and there
isnt the love thing,theres just a sense of belonging
and frenship and companionship.......

P6 year,i started playing MS...when we first met,
we were both that kind ultra noob ppl.....who got
chased around by ribbon piggys...zzz isnt it?

we were just in the buddy list cuz we din both to
delete each other...and the next time we meet....
was after lv30...liife was great wif her(guys,for
those who are thinking how i noe that she is a her,
i tell u,i noe her ok>?)everyday,train together,then
get lazy liao just slack around and say sweet words
to each other and encourage each other and i felt
really fulfilled those times....but i always need to
prepair for PSLE so...sadly,i paused maple for
2months,aug to oct....i told her that and she said
i should study hard and focus on the exam..........
and she will be waiting to congratulate me ........

so.....oct,i come back....i was lv44 and she was.....
lv70+......omg....aug to oct....from lv 30+ to 70+
she no longer train at the usual place,cuz the place
is too noob for her though we still meet once in a
while.

i was determined to minimize the lv gap between
us so that once again i could be back wif her.........
for 6 days,the only week i hav before leaving for
holiday,i played at least 15hs a day,from 10pm til
6.30pm,then bath and go to sch with myself sleepy.
i managed to lv till lv 50.....yet still such a large gap.
then,tat was a night which i dreaded.....cuz i felt
betrayed,or is it really betrayal?cuz there isnt actually
no love?i dono...i just felt hurt.....some whr some how.

she came to find me,instead of us meeting in the fm.
she told me,she found a new bf,someone who could
train wif her,help her and he live close to her house..
and yar....i cant remember anything else..................

i felt.....pure dread,it felt as if earth just stopped
spinning and my life just lost itself........lv difference
again....why???

FROM THEN ON,I DECIDED not to be a noob,who is
powerless and is unable to decided for himself...........
i want power! i want strength!

since then,we were still frens but it was never the
same again she could feel it too,cuz i was cold towards her
and tried to avoid her as much as possible.
she tried to made it up,by helping in wat eva ways she
could,however it just wont be the same..........

eventually,i stopped contacting her though i din
delete her from my msn.people change as time
passes,let the fond memories settle in my mind
as we mature and learn the way.

2009-05-19T19:15:00.002+08:00

French is over...Geo is over...
and now wif open house approaching...
i feel that life is over too...

Where is my point of life?i want to do well
in all my subjects and...um ya...flute also...
but now...im aready so suck...low GPA...
low EQ...low frenship lv and lousy flute playing...
im fact...it couldnt be counted as playing flute...
it should be called making noises using flute...
and this is a very shameful thing...but what
can i do?

i suppose it wound be the best just to work hard
and put in ur best effort for everything in life
and just let it be as it is....
But i cant....i never want to let things pass as it is...
i want to,and i have to do my very best and achieve
what i want to achieve........!!!!!!!!

so...in conclusion....haocheng leads a very normal life
however,he face many problems which others would
never face but anyway...i also dont have some of the
problems which others might face......
anyway.....i am disorientated ....what is my goal of life?

2009-05-10T16:24:00.002+08:00

Y am i writing this post?
cuz i want to write something....
tat was lame.....but what im going to talk
abt is......sniping^^

lol,after readng a certain Ebook on sniper
,i began to feel the precision inside me
stirring....it is a story of a noob guy who
wanted to become a general.....................
then he was like........super noob..............
even worse than me...................................
then as i read,i took down certain tips...
then try it out on wolfteam.......not bad
sia.....i could now manage to get a 1:1
kill death ratio while using sniper rifle
full time........compared to my previous
record of 2:7 kill-death...........................

it seem to hav helped.....but hu noes???

2009-05-07T17:10:00.003+08:00

today i am doing a reflection on myself..............
its time to forget about the past and let my past
memories go....im sure that they dont feel good
being forced to stay wif me all this time too.......

Thanks Mr Leo,for sharing your experience and
teach me how to carry on wif life..........................
how to forget and look at the brighter side.........
I knew all this all along,i suppose it's just that i
din want to do this..................................................

Thanks Linda,for the all these memories............
which accompanied me for a long portion of my
life.......thanks,it is now time to let them go,to whr
they truly belong.........its time to let them roam
through the universe,cuz the memories are alive,too
Bye memories^^,i will miss u,but i will not dewell
upon u.........................................................................

*******************************************

Though i mentioned that u forget and everything.
but then i must still say.....i wont be back to normal
(primary sch de focused,confident,hardworking,
cheerful,loyal,courageous haocheng)
So i will still be a bit weird lar......dont mention anything
to do wif relationship to me while i recover..............

It is really weird that it is thursday and i dont hav
to go for tuition..........so strange................................
and i wont be seeing aunty jenifer until end of june

so...cya blog...................................Legend

2009-05-06T21:25:00.003+08:00

ok...so after reading johnson's blogpost......
i realised something......................................
johnson was appologising for his mistakes
for the past.....but i am only going to focus
on today....

he said that he should not have just sent
6 members from RIMB in to listen without
consulting the rgssb ppl........

but what i hav to say is...though it appeared
that it has got nothing to do wif me............
however,i must admit.....i was think of the
same thing as him at that moment............
and it appeared to me...that nothing was
wrong as i tot that the guy was arguing
for only rimb...so i tot that if they want to
get in...just get someone to help them lor...

then after that...i realised that my thinking
was very wrong when i see the disappointment
on the rgsb peep's face.......i quite bad for
being so selfish......though iwasnt one of the
6 who went in.......

now since johnson has brought this up.....
i reckon that i should reflect on this too...
i shouldnt hav been so inconsiderate.......
though i wasnt one of those who had the
power to make the choice.........................
but still....my think was wrong..................
i hope that the world could forgive me....
though i din really do any harm to it by
thinking inconsiderately..........................

2009-05-06T19:39:00.003+08:00

this is another post which i posted for batch blog......
so i think why not i post it here too??
i try my best to mug bah.................

2009-05-06T19:39:00.001+08:00

****before reading the post,pls be noticified that i have uploaded disco party III recordings on the e group........this is the only piece which i could find........hope that it is useful......................

Ok....so um.....rj got GOLD..........is that suppose to be good or bad?i suppose it just mark the end of their syf journey................i hope Mr Oura will not feel disappointed or wateva........

well.....only 5 of our batchmates turned up.....attendance was bad.....but anyway,compared to sec3s we were better......zzz....cuz we got more hardcore members^^i suppose.......0.o?

but then......non of us got the chance to watch them perform....................cuz the tickets ran short.......
it was really a great act by those who gave up their chance to watch rj play so that the others could hav a chance to enter....though what u guys did was just to follow seniors' instructions........................

anyway.....i feel screwed..........i dont believe that i could achieve the 3.6 now...............and my holiday plans are settled......27thMay go back china.........until 23th june come back............so i guess i will miss most of the holiday pracs......that sucks........but well then.....too bad......its almost time to say goodbye to the wonderful record of 100% attendance which i have been keeping.........
looks like this year cannot make it for 100% again............................i hope that by the time i come back i wont be lagging behind everyone...........cya............................................
haocheng

2009-05-01T16:32:00.002+08:00

I shall post more info abt my dream....
i dreamt of something that is very weird
um...as if dreams arnt weird in the first
place...

it has got something to do wif arjun and
some other ppl........which is a bit the
impossible.......never the less................

then i was screaming for that person when
suddenly..i found myself awake to the sound
of my alarm.........

then i felt very empty and lost and some other
random feeling........just like something has
been taken away from me.............

so this is all alr........no more xtra info than these
online...cuz u noe?the influence is bad..........
and sometimes i also dont want unwanted others
to know it before i choose to tell them..........

2009-05-01T07:25:00.001+08:00

i woke up wif a strange dream tis morning....
its abt her again...........losing her is painful....
it jsut that i had been trying to convince myself
that it never happened........when it is true.......

will post more after band prac.ty

2009-04-30T23:56:00.001+08:00

this is what i posted on the batch blog and this is also
what i want to say.............................so i just pasted it
in,.....................................................................................:

hi guys, haocheng here.
as you guys are reading this,(morning,1st may2009)
i wound be practicing and reflecting on my mistakes.
hope that after you guys read this,you guys wound
buck up and work harder....in the clever way,wif your
brains....or we no ned stay in RIMB anymore..........
ppl in RIMB put in the effort wif their brains working
at the same time.........

it is really sad to see our conductor,Mr Oura and our
seniors being so sad.........isnt it?Mr Oura conducted
RIMB for 20+years,since he was 20+?half of his life
time and most likely all his hard work and effort and
time had been put into this band.The band is just like
his child,he watch the band grow,and improve and
everything............and it is really sad for him to see
this child of his to be in this state that we r in now...
isnt it?

our seniors,it is really hard on them.....being the leading
batch which broke the 'legecy' of golds..........they want
that to happen?They din and that was the reason for
them being harsh on some of us...in fact...it is not really
harsh.........according to kirk.....they had worse last time.

So guys,for Mr Oura,for our seniors,for the band,for the
school,for our teachers in charge,and lastly,for our own
honour,our pride and our sense of achievement!Cuz we
will be seniors in 4months time and we would the the
people our juniors look up to.

We must work hard;work smart,we are not only cca mates,
we are not only batch mates,we are not even brothers,we
are more than that!We are a whole,everyone is vital and if
any of us were not on form,the whole batch suffers.For that,
pls guys,if you hav any problems,just talk to us,any one of us
we would be more than happy to listen to you.

Liangpu,im sorry that i always held a wrong impression of
you since sec1,though i never showed it.......i want to tell you
something,that is:we are together,all the time,everyone is
there to support oneanother.One for all;All for one.
You hav anything on ur mind,just look for us.

pls,giv a little more attention to band,just spare a bit of your
personal time and study time and slack time and what ever.
i dont even play FPS games now though i am deep into them.
and my results arnt good too.....but when it is band,i come
for every practise and i willl make the wffort to concentrate
on the music i am suppose to play and forget abt how tiring
the day was and how much homework i have on that day and
how many lousy results did i get and how many scoldings from
my subject teachers and stuff....
i would just concentrate on band,only band,nothing else........
anything other than band....leave till practise over.................

though we r in such a sorry state now.............that doesnt mean
that we r doomed......we could make the difference,we r not sec4
but hu set the rule that only sec4s could make the important
difference?we cant just watch the sec4s and 3s struggle,we hav
to do our best to try to help by playing better,so that we could lift
a bit of the burdens they have on their shoulders.

We still hav another 1year+ before we reach the point whr our fate
would be decided.....the next SYF.....if we could redeem our selves
depended on it....and we only hav 1year+....not still hav 1year+.....
its ONLY!!!!!

some of us never try,or never try hard enough......then they giv up,
saying that they could not do it,they cant,.....wateva.....this is not true
not true at all!
I share this example wif u guys arh...just now,i was wif liangpu
walking down the mrt station,then the train arrive and we though that
we couldnt make it.....but we decided to run for it and we managed to
board it before the doors close..........see this?we din noe that we could
do it......we tried our best and we succedded,if we though that we
couldnt and we just let it go.....then we would hav to wait for 5 more min
for the next one.......u get me?

though it may seem impossible,believe me....it is possible!
IT IS POSSIBLE!!!!!!do your very best and we can make the difference,
we could giv RIMB a gold wif honours ! we can!!!!!!!

i am a person who dont like to giv up,if i dont fight to the last second,it wont
be me............i always run for the MRT at kranji station in the morning after
taking the bus there from my house....sometimes i got in,some times i din,
but what is really important here is that,got in or not,we all do our best.
In our band 's case......i dont see why we could not get the gold wif honours
in 1year+ time.............

suppose thats all i want to say..........hope you guys would be more bonded and
more enthusiastic at pratice on mon.......good nite.....gosh....writing this post for
almost 40 min liao.....zzz i still must go for morning prac 2mr....CYA

2009-04-26T14:45:00.002+08:00

since morning 2day i had been muggiing.....cuz
2mr got maths TA + OC formative + chinese
compo....if dont mug i want go die is it??????

then after that mom went out...then got free time
....using com wif out her permission......im a bad
boy.....^^....
then i get emo........what can i do abt it?..............

最近非常喜欢梁静茹的会呼吸的痛。。。。。。
和俊杰的我还想她。。。。。。。both are emo
music.........另外，我又开始听传雄的男人海洋了
这首歌都多老了。。。。我小三就在听了。。。
当时觉得很垃圾。。。。小六时非常喜欢男人海洋
超sad......后来自己把它给封了。。。因为我每一
次听这首歌都会哭。。。。。我怕我整天哭就没时
间做别的。。。。

爱过了才会懂得珍惜。。。。。。我早就该懂了。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。

为什么现在还是放不下呢？她的声音，她的脸庞，
她的一举一动，她的哭，她的笑，他那清澈但又充满温柔的眼神
深深地烙印在我的脑海中。。。。。
忘不了，还是不想忘掉，连我自己也不知道，
我只能用：我们不属于同一个世界来麻痹自己
脆弱的心灵，可这又有什么用处呢？
只不过是自己骗自己罢了，我怕我接受不了这个现实

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

在这里我真的很想说一句话。。。但是因为网上不安
全所以我就不在这里说了，只好默默地藏在心里。。。

当我抱着妳的时候
窗外风起黄叶飘落
以为是浪漫原来只是
有心在飞走
不懂情人心里想的
爱就瞎了也迷路了
想摸索什么摸到了妳
手心的沉默
最痴情的男人像海洋
爱在风暴里逞强
苦还是风平浪静的模样
卷起了依恋那么长
挥手目送妳启航
到妳觉得我给不了的天堂
温柔的男人像海洋
爱在关键时隐藏
而心酸汇集都敞开胸膛
做远远看护的月光
不做阻挡妳的墙
我的爱是折下自己的翅膀
送给妳飞翔。。。。。

2009-04-22T19:29:00.002+08:00

aiya...very tired for no reason,i just felt tired
and sleepy without any known cause............
i feel stupid............cuz i slept through maths
lesson again....and i shouldnt b doing that....
cuz maths is my worst subject............

i felt so tired today...went back home straight
aft sch then after bathing,i played flute and
read E-book until 6+pm....i tried this piece
called Castle in the sky-天空之城,it is really nice
but then...i am seriously in no mood to play
that kind of emo piece cuz i was aready emo
enough and i din want to hear any more emo
music...then i kept my flute after some basic
cleaning,thanks to my emo nature....sorry flutey
..............i must try not to let my emoness take
over me when it comes to your cleaniness...

i feel super tired....my eye lids kept falling while
my brain kept on logging off automatically like
someone's business................my business..........
so more it is lesson time........2day i almost fall
asleep during 3 lessons.....3 out of 6...dam pro
rit?

first period...eng...talking abt lit...100% brain
shut off one.........nvm,after that...period b4
lunch...Geo...though i convinced myself that i
loves Geo and i want to take it as RA next year
...i still fall asleep........=.="
lastly....maths after lunch...cant help it sia......
just after lunch......a period which i dont like and
the things teacher teach is hard to understand
+ stomach full of rice...100% slp one....................
sad for the teachers taking the aft lunch period..
they had such a bad time and they shall continue
to have a bad time unless the sch abolish the lunch
break.........lol...=.=""

2009-04-17T19:59:00.002+08:00

Oh gosh...2day went for band prac.....first ever
band prac which is so fun....the sec2s were
having a batch practise of centuria in the band rm
then after that i went out for a bit of sectionals
then later philemon told me to try the picolo....
then i play...in the end....from end of this year
on ...i hav to play picolo...unless johnson or
philemon show some mercy to me by letting me
play flute.........cuz i like flute more,longer,silverish
,beautiful sound and it dont look weird cuz picolo
too small aready,.....also...i scared that i not good
enough....cuz picolo ned very good player...and i
am not good enough....i cannot play in tune,on time
nice tone,my hands could not move fast enough...
it is just that i could hit high G in my first try mah
......besides this i got no other advantages......

Now i feel very worried.........i scared i will not be
good enough....i was like pushed over my limit
when i hit the G lar........am i good enough?Cant
philemon/yidong/nicholas play it?............but i
guess i dont hav a choice,do i?Just hope that
while i practise playing picolo next time,i could
still hav time for my flute..................................

2009-04-16T22:25:00.002+08:00

i got my PR1 today...that was expected....avg 3.2
so sad i couldnt reach the requirments for a new
flute...sob...still got much more to improve on....
Band prac is resuming 2mr.....great....but now i
more worried abt my NAFFA and upcoming CCTs
....for the past few years i had been aiming for the
best A result i could achieve in NAFFA test........
but this year...i am only aiming for an avg C gold..
so u see?this is my standard drop....i am unfit.....
dam it....too bad...i went to sch councilor for an
appointment set by my teacher...who is worried
that i am stressing myself too much.......and she
is correct.................Lets see what are the things
that i am worried for...........

* emo over certain people.....
* worried that i could not get good results for an RA subject
* no GPA 3.6=no flute
* my flute playing is not improving
* RE....my grp is screwed...i am currently supporting the whole grp
* um...emo over certain people.....i just cant forget...u noe?
* NAFA is next week and i am still not fit enough...

So u see?All this adds up to my pressure...........
recently...i posted this question:how to confess
to the girl you like? on yahoo answers....
then i got so much rubbish and crap which does
not help at all........is this the end of it?...............
i still thinks of her................................................

o ya...i told this to the councilor too...then we were
discussing what is it that made me like her so much
then after the session...i felt better but then,the next
day,i felt emo again...as i was thinking of is it because
she cared for me that made me like her?Or what is it?
i really dono...theres just a sence of energy and hope
and happiness when i was with her.i wonder why?

2009-04-11T22:59:00.002+08:00

I am emo

I have been emoing alot theseadays....and i cant help it.
i must admit that i am a very emotional ppl and i can
really draw strength from my happy memories but at
the same time i could be really sad due to my unhappy
memories/bitter memories.

Today i went to church....Chinese one....i felt very happy,
a sense of being home with them.....all of them from the
Chinese department are from china.....and all the peeps
from the eng department is white.....the church is pretty
new lar.....only established in sept 2008.really new rit?

Anyway...when i was listening to this part which is talking
abt what is the most important thing and who is the most
important person,without knowing,tears had been sliding
down on my face while i was drawn into my memories of
that time.............I felt really sad.....i understand that it will
be best if i can just forget everything...but i cant,cuz i am
too emotional a person to forget such things..........emotions
were great boosts,but that was long long ago.

There was a point of time,when just a smile from her could
make me last a whole 2 days high-spirited. However now....
i am already to hurt to be so naive.What i could only manage
it to be happy for a few mins and let myself be overwhelmed
by emoness again.........

Um...guess this is why love is an double edged sword...or
dagger...what ever! cuz i benefited from love but at the same
time,i was hurt by love and it took far more than what i have
gained or maybe not. Maybe if theres no love i might not have
been good enough to go to RI...but if theres no love at least i
would not have to be so emo...which is causing my studies to go
down also.........so....love or no love.......i dono.....
I couldnt choose the other path since i tried this one or the
world would be filled up by successful ppl who tried a few
different paths of life so that they could become successful.....

But i really feel that i need her......she is someone whom gives
me the feeling of secureness and made me work hard....i dono
why am i saying this............

But at the same time,i noe..........we hav chosen different paths
of life and most likely we will never be crossed on our journey
of life again.......how sad...but life is like that...isnt it?Maybe i
am just a sour grape who do like to see or even imagine her
with a boyfriend who smokes....her current BF...............it hurts
my heart............but i am in no position to stop her.........Who i
am to her? a no body now.......

So....i guess i will have to allow her to chose for herself bah.....
hope she will turn back in time

2009-04-09T21:44:00.002+08:00

Today i had a very weird dream........but i wonder if
i should share it online.....cuz i scared got negative
effect.....then i dead liao.........

So.....after considering.....i decided.....not to wirte abt it
but if u r 2 curious....then just ask me for a copy of the
story,i hav it in txt file.^^

i am now emoing over the fact that i dono how to put
music on my blog....im stupid i noe....i was never into
IT stuff....unless u count games lar of cuz,....then i cannot
put emo music on my emo blog to make the visiters feel
the emoness as soon as they enter the blog...............
anyone can teach me how to do it?
but my taste of music will be sure criticized...............
i will put music 1 as Your are sunshine.....itas ultra emo
for me....cuz when i hear it i think of the pri5 camp which
was such a sweet but painful memory.

then second song i put 隐形的翅膀cuz it is ultra anti emo
i always listen to it when im emo then after listening i will
calm down and feel cheerful.........then the 3rd song is dono
yet...i got alot of 3rd choice...........

pls some one tell me how to put the music player on my blog...
i tried many ways...none worked................

another thing.....i dont want johnson to leave RIMB...sobsob..
we still hav so much to learn from him..........he is like our hope
and expectation......its like when we couldnt do something,he
could always be there for us and he givs us hope and inspiration
to work harder...........no!!!!i want johnson!!!!!!!!!!!!(im childish =.=")

2009-04-08T20:49:00.001+08:00

o ya....i forgot one more thing.....

The reasons which we should work very hard to improve:
(in no order of importance)

FOR MR OURA! Who spend so much time with us,encouraged us and helped us and many many more...
FOR RAFFLES INSTITUTION,the school which we loved,which is our second home,we must bring glory to our school.
FOR RIMB AND OUR COUNTLESS SENIORS...(basically anyone who was in RIMB before is our senior...) maybe their consecutive gold has been broken,but we must not let them down....though we all noe that we played very well today.........i seriously dono what the judges want ......
MRS TAN,MS KEK AND MR JEE---they had spend a lot of effort on us and we shouldnt disapoint them....
For ourselves,we all want to make GREAT music...dont we?????????

i guess with this i conclude everything....i feel dam lame sia.....arjun and kelvin tot u guys are regular posters of this blog??????why after syf no one even said a word????
i got 3 test 2mr sia......i still bothered to post!
U guys better post hor....... or i shall see u in sch....humhum....

legendary Z

2009-04-08T20:47:00.001+08:00

Guys,we got silver.
maybe some of us are disappointed,sad,heart-broken
relieved,what eva.......
but what is really important is what Mr oura said......
we play music to entertain the audience ,not to compete
wif other schools.

So what if we got a silver,i actually believe that its better
this way.Now we only have the burning desire to improve
and not like the previous batches....they had to worry about
what will happen if they break RIMB's record....now we can
start afresh and we will start a new legacy^^.(UNDER THE
CONDITION THAT WE WORK REALLY HARD....MY
TUNING IS VERY SCREWED.....)
So.....LETS REMEMBER THE TIME WHICH WE GOT A
SILVER AND IMPROVE ON OURSELVES SO THAT
WE CAN DO BETTER NEXT TIME,2011...WE SHALL
START THE LEGACY OF CONSECUTIVE GWHS!!

ANYWAY,WE ALL DID WELL TODAY,
STAND TALL ;STAND PROUD.

RIMB,THE FLAMES LIVE ON!
haocheng love Miss Yamaha 221 ^^

2009-04-06T22:26:00.003+08:00

um...i m back....longlonglong time never post liao...
cuz i dono what to write and also i am a bit lazy and
i am also sick...last night and this whole day i was
dammmm sick.....caught a super flu....unlucky sia...
then missed first period...chinese....felt ok lar cuz i
slept for an xtra hour today....tats y i can recover so
fast...i am suddenly uncertain again......if the band
could achieve GWH....at first i tot we were going to
break the record no matter how much we try..........
then....i found out that many band got GWH.....and
some of them are of not so good standard 2 yrs
ago.....so i tot we will get GWh no matter what.......
but today....i felt uncertain again................................
i felt a bit freaked after listening to xinmin's fledermaus
....it was awesome and i am not even sure if we have
ever achieved that kind of standard during our pracs(most likely we had done it before.....^^)
........also the other GWH band's set pieces were great
too.... i wonder if we could make it...............it will be a
shame not to do so...........but im not sure abt the others.
my tone is wavering (some more i dont even hav a good tone)
and my flu made my tuning problem worse cuz my brain
was jammed............due to the block nose........it felt damn
bad...............Lastly.......let us pray to god so that the band
could do our best at SCH and enjoy the event.................

2009-04-01T21:00:00.003+08:00

I am certain that i felt shocked when mr oura recieved
the call and told us the news......but......i dono what to
say lar....anyway,if they hav done their best.................
then they hav done well...theres still next competition,
concert,and life doesnt stop because SYF2009 wasnt
a good one,what has passed is now a history.............
i am not so sure what to say anymore........
btw,kelvin and some other guys came up wif sunday
practise.......its a great idea...and i add on to the fact that
we can bring homework and help each other after we
finish our practise...but sadly....we r the only batch that
is going to try it and most member of the batch arnt
even interested......if got 4 ppl wana go then i also go
wif them that makes it 5......which is a big number...
duh....five is a big number???is haocheng retarded.?
anyway we cant do much....this so called sunday prac
will just be a tone improvment day as there will be
no seniors and we can also use this time to catch up
with our work and also.....we can discuss on what piece
to play on investure ...kelvin suggested flight of the
bumble for fun.....but i thought why not.....but im sure
we r not good enough....we cant even play the notes
fast enough ....no ned say anything abt in tune liao.....
ai...how i wish when we r sec 4 investure time we can
play flight of the bumblebee....not full tempo also nvm
as long as we can play...and sound nice....................
cya bb...............good job RGSSB,though u din get Gold
but dont be upset or disappointed cuz there will always
be the next competition and SYFs....and what has been
passed is SERIOUSLY history...
nevertheless TKGS......wow GWH.....great work............
NANHUA din get gold ...again....tats sad,but its ok i
suppose....just work harder or the next one..................

As for RIMB...........i shall not comment until we get our
results next week at 5.30pm on wed 8th of april..........

2009-03-31T20:43:00.002+08:00

Oh this is bad...i am just writing for the fact that i feel
that i should write as i haven been writing for a few
days....so....after 2days of SYF and heres what we got...
2 GWH(both on today)and 5 golds....

So....this is a good sign or a bad sign???
the answer is that it has got nothing to do with a sign...
the only sign to this is u work hrad enough or u slack
around...obviously St Nicks girls hav been working very hard...

must work hard,.....2mr is the big time for many of the peeps
i noe....namly ZhiChao from NanHua and JingEr from Tanjong
Katong Girl's though she isnt playing....Work hard,you will be the leading
batch for the next SYF......

Lastly...and most importantly.......RGS....they r playing 2mr tooo.......
here i wish them best of luck in their upcoming competitions and
hope they will perform to their very best.Good luk :p

Also rit....Catholic high is playing too....feeling very anticipated.......
hope they will do well...though we r competitors......good luk!

ok lar this is all sia....now back to RIMB......i dono abt the others....
hope they are all working hard now......together we shall do our best
...and bring glory to the sch.....
kays,cya

2009-03-28T21:58:00.002+08:00

how do you hear if its is sharp or flat?
I NED HELP OR I THINK I WILL JUST
UM...JUST WHAT ARH.....I MUST CONSIDER
CAREFULLY....LTR CURSE MYSELF TOO HARD
...OK,I FEEL QUITE BORED....AND QUITE BAD
....HOW CAN LIFE BE GOOD WHEN U SIMPLY
TIRED OF ALL THE TIRING STUFF...

WHEN CAN I GO FOR MY VISION OF PERFECT
LIFE AND HOLIDAY?WHEN EVERYDAY I CAN
JUST WAKE UP IN THE MORNING THEN GO
FOR BREAKFAST THEN DRINK SOME DRINKS
THEN GO FOR A WALK WIF MY GIRL FREN
(I DONT HAV ONE YET,SIGH....)BY THE SEA...
MUST HAV BEAUTIFUL BEACH OR ELSE NO WAY!

THEN CAN GO HOME THEN PLAY SOME MUSIC...
VIF GIRL FREN AGAIN....THEN GO OUT AND DO
SOME WINDOW SHOPPING,IF HAV STUFF I LIKE
THEN I CAN BUY,........

THEN I THINK LIFE WILL BE QUITE GOOD...........
I LIKE THIS KIND OF LIFE.....I WONDER IF IT WILL
BE EVER POSIBLE......GOING TO SCH AT 6.10 AND
RETURN HOME AT 8PM EVERYDAY IS REALLY NOT
WHAT I WANT,THIS WAY,I CANT EVEN GO AND
STROLL IN THE NEIGHBOURHOOD......

I HAV BEEN VISITING JUNCTION8 MORE THAN
BUKIT PANJANG PLAZA AND THE LATER IS SO
MUCH NEARER TO MY HOUSE...SO U SEE!

BUT TOO BAD...IS I WANT SUCH A LIFE SRYLE,
I HAV TO MEET CERTAIN REQUIRMENT.........
SUCH AS HAV A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF MONEY.
THEN AT LEAST MY FLUTE PLAYING MUST BE
GOOD ENOUGH OR I WILL JUST SOUND LIKE SHYT
THEN I STILL MUST HAV THIS PLAY WHICH IS QUITE
NEAR TO THE SEA AND IT MUST BE WIF A BEAUTIFUL
AND NOT POLLUTED BEACH...........................................

OK,TATS ALL FOR TODAY.....BTW...I AM NOW BARRED
BY SOMEONE FROM HER BLOG.....................................

2009-03-27T21:48:00.002+08:00

ok...i got cut for lots of parts of set piece........but dont worry lah
i wont be unhappy one,its just that i felt a bit bad.....angry at myself
how could i be so suck......yesterday just got some parts and then
in just one day,i forgot abt it again...and then my tuning is so screwed
that i got cut in so many parts lar,ai.......wheres the haocheng a few
years ago when he first started learning flute?it was so easy at that
time lor.....i cant take my stupidity anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also,i am quite affected by some random stuff which i mentioned earlier
.........ai.....i ned to find a way to forget it,or most probally my syf and
some other stuff will just screw up...

2009-03-26T01:38:00.002+08:00

im super ultra emo now....i will try to get over.....
lol so sad...i just got myself bulked up and scored
a full mark aka top in class physics test and then
i am going down again...see all this positive and
negative effects?wonder whats the cause of this?

read the posts below for more info....i seriously dont
want to say anymore.

2009-03-26T01:31:00.002+08:00

argh...i was so naive.............thinking that people
will forever be the same......how possible!
people will change as time pass by..............maby
i can finally set myself free now,after four years
of life wif chains.

and now i shall post..................................................
60 things which most girls dont noe.......................

--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys will brag about anything.

--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

--Try to be as straightforward as possible.

--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--Guys don't really have final decisions.

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys like femininity not feebleness.

--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--A guy would give his everything to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

done...girls,guys,all hav fun reading

2009-03-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

Continue from just now.....i still feel very bad.....
pls cheer me up or i will most likely to drop to
dono whr by 2morrow.

i wonder what should i do.......i given hope up,
but god made hope go back to me,i tried to get
hope to be my fren again,but our frenship is
lost forever...

i suddenly feel like singing the Pri5 camp 's song
U r my sunshine.the memories of the camp was
still wif me but my sunshine is lost .....and will continue
to be lost for a long time....if not forever.

You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away

The other night dear as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
When I awoke dear I was mistaken
So and I hung my head and cried

You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and made you happy
no matter if u say the same
even if you leave me to love other
You'll still be my sunshine

You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away
So please don't take my sunshine away

i changed the 2nd last para cuz it is not what i feel
,the original ver for tat part is very selfish kind...
i dont like it....i hope my own ver de lrc is still ok...
cuz i cant sing(i am so special....LOL)

i think i got nothing else to say.....i go finish my alice
project....then i come back for more crap......hahahah

2009-03-25T21:54:00.002+08:00

Ai...i failed myself again......anyway,thanks for weichen
's tips on my yahoo question....but it does not help.......
looks like the past it the past and it is really ____(my
chinese essay love story 's name)that it will not work
i am now feeling very demoralised and lost and helpless.
Johnson said that he want to cut some ppl 's parts to make
it sound better.i dont want to be cut ;i worked hard to prevent
that,but now im not so sure i am determined anymore,
i aready hav a stack of homework which i did not finish and
there will be more in time to come and my health is failing me
and in this kind of time of need,my belief which i draw strength
from,which brings me hope have left me again;it hurts,i hav
aready lost my fighting sprirt once and i dont want to lose it
again................................o pls my belief,please just help me
through this period of time,i really need your support.....
lol,i sounds stupid when i say this...........................................

ok lar,enough le bah..........bb

2009-03-22T14:50:00.004+08:00

唉，我真的感觉很害怕，为什么生活会真么无奈
不由自主，我应该是自己的主人，但现在不知为
什么好像生活一点目标也没有，最近去参观了一
位大姐的部落格（大姐并不大，比我大几个月而已)。哇！好有启发哦！

跟她比我的生活真的什么都不算，她同时学两种乐器，学的都很棒，学
习也比我好多了。人家都没有像我这样在这里自暴自弃。。。。

我真的好想努力再次成为别人的焦点，但是我行吗？我真的不知道，我
需要自信，可是我实在是太没有自我控制力了，有时间就泡在wolfteam上
怎么办啊？

还有johnson，他实在是太厉害了，和哥哥两个人那么小就来新加坡。。。
要是我的话我肯定做不到。

我要赶快在下个学期开始的时候顶下我的目标，上个学期，我自己定下的
三个目标全都落空了。。。。。我很失败对不对？
这个学期我得努力。。成绩不能再落了，长笛也要有他突破性进步，要不然
我不就白活了吗？？？唉！没办法，在我韦昊程大金子发光之前我永远都会
是废铁。。。。。。。。所以。。。。我要努力！！！！！！！！！！！
为了进步而奋斗！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

I can I shall I must I will
（i get from RIMB motto one...)
i think tis ver suits me the best...

2009-03-22T13:56:00.002+08:00

Today,i wake up at abt 11am......pretty
late hor,it a wonder that i could wake up
so late cuz i slept at 9 last night...............
thats 14hrs?....yar...that is 14hrs,this makes
me a pig!i dont want to be a pig!!!!!
i SHALL WAKE UP EARLY NEXT TIME!
(CUZ NEXT TIME IS SCH DAY LIAO MAH)

I FELT VERY BORED JUST NOW AND DECIDED THAT
I SHOULD GO GOOGLE FOR SOME LAME THINGS TO
READ......I WAS READING SOMETHING LIKE HOW TO
CONFESS TO THE GIRL U LIKE,UM,IT WAS NOT VERY
HELPFUL FOR THIN SKIN PEEP LIKE ME...ANYWAY
I ALSO DONT NEED IT NOW......BUT THE THING PPL
WROTE THERE IS PRETTY FUNNY ,WIF ALL KIND OF
CONFESSION METHODS,WHICH COULD BE REALLY
HELPFUL FOR MY OC SUMMATIVE(PARDON ME FOR
THE SPELLING ERROR) WIF MRS SELVAN 2MR.

THIS SHOULD BE ALL I HAV TO TALK ABT.............IF
GOT MORE STUFF THEN MABY I JUST POST LATER LOR
STILL GOT TONS OF HOMEWORK AND FILELING WHICH
I HAVEN DONE YET....LOOKS LIKE TODAY I CANT PLAY
FLUTE LIAO....SO SAD........I FEEL SO GUILTY................

2009-03-21T20:45:00.002+08:00

Aiyo,i lao ren chi dai liao arh
.......forgot mention abt the weather just now
.......very bad sia.....................
it was like....um,very yellow
and the wind was very loud
....guys,bear wif it lar.........
i noe my eng very bad,its
not aunty jenefer's fault orh
its bcuz i nv work hard enough...
Must say lar,just now very
woried cuz scared sg got natural
disaster......lucky no storm orh..
Anyway,u saw it too....................
no matter which part of the island
u r at,we r under the same sky
and we both see the same things
when i was staring out of my window,
looking at the sky,
i was thinking about u,
though im sure u hav other things
on your mind.......such as sch work,
choir performance and all other stuff.

ok lar,done liao.........bb!!

2009-03-21T19:04:00.002+08:00

Waaaa.................................

Today's prac was good!!!!
Though i din do my best
due to my own emo prob lar
Ok lar,so lucky that Mr oura
wasnt angry.............................

Must work even harder!!!!!!!
Something which Mr oura said
which i thought is very funny
>>He drew a girl face and on
the white board then tell someone
that this is blahblahblah......which
obviously that guy dont even noe
then he say that she is watching u
play and she is very shy and she sits
at the back.......so the whoeva poor guy
must play louder so that the whoeva
girl which Mr oura named his drawing
can hear..................

Funny rit?.........not funny thenn too bad
We r just different.......................................

Ok,tats all for 2day

and Byebye!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-20T15:09:00.002+08:00

Today,band prac was very bad,firstly i wake up late
and that means i go band late and i felt very guilty...
i felt that it is so wrong of me since Mr oura is working
so hard for the sake of the band and there i ---one the
the many weak links of the band is going band late.

Secondly,the horns are facing their usual problem again
and Mr oura had to spend lots of time on their parts...
then rit until 12 pm,he finally cant take our bad state of
today and said that if 2mr's prac he come and see attendance
is bad,or our play is very below standard..........then he
will walk off straight.So....u see.........?Anyways,i shall do
my best and improve my self.....namely tuning and my
flute playing skills,just like johnson had said.....when i go
JC band,there will be the grade 8 duoni and some posibility
(pardon me for the spelling XP )that there will be cath high
band people coming to RJCSB next time.......like Denial.....
the ultra pro guy.......................

So,i must improve myself...........MUSTMUSTMUST!!!
or else ...........or else what argh?

Shut up lar..........See?im so dumb....or else what argh?
Or else i will be laughed at in Band next time lar,so easy!
Great!i hav just answered my own Qn,so.....since i dont
want to be a noob,then.......i shall go for band 2mr and 8 am
pls get me rit,reach band at 8am not go sch at 8am OOH.

wa....i just found out i aready said so much........and i got more
.....I can aready see some ppl fainting over there liao.
"Pls leh!Dont faint leh!Giv haocheng a little more support and
he will last a long way.."

ARGH......nvmvnvmvnvmvnvmvnvm.........................................

ANYWAY ARH,guys arh....im thinking of getting a flute (new one)
of around 3k......um.......any recommendations?????

2009-03-19T22:58:00.002+08:00

ok,so this is it,i want to post again.

i tot i will never want to post again,but too bad
,i just want to post again.......................................
retarded rit?
ya retarded!
ok,today i had tuition,but it is getting more and
more difficult-------aunty jenifer 's eng paper
.......i wonder if i can pass it.............BTW,today i
found something cool,first , i found out the full
name,second,i search for it on google blogs and
after 5 or 4 pages of rubbish,i found the blog
wa....God bless me....bless me a lot sia....thank
you thank you....hope god bless RIMB also,
ok,back to my case,i felt lucky as i also found out
all the info i need . This is the first time ever which
i am so serious in this kind of thing.

kays,bb

i will create legend

EOYzzzzzz

2008-10-16T16:33:00.002+08:00

2mr got sc eoy....3 subject conbine together test....will die sia.............may god bless me and blast all the muggers^^

2008-09-15T18:19:00.001+08:00

dots,today went to so many web sites try download games,then take hell long time to download after download then found out........can not run.zzz,so sad and sian

2008-09-13T16:06:00.002+08:00

today is so lame and boring,staying in my room for the whole day and couldnt do anything.that was a bit retarded,how could i be so guai and saty in the room for the whole day?well; just did,of no reason.too bad,im using my laptop and the keyboard sux so i dont want to post any more of my boring day;in case it actually bored someone to death.

2008-09-12T22:02:00.001+08:00

hi blog,today our last syf prac before the EOYs took place, that was still ok but we are not improving fast enough and im still too slow and lost most of the times but i will become better,just w8 and see!Ziddane of RIMB fluboes

2008-09-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

o gosh!!!though i prayed and prayed........i still failed my french test by a overall score of 32.5 marks noooo!!!!!!!

2008-09-09T18:17:00.002+08:00

die tomorrow got MAths TA.gona mug for it or die in a very bad manner-_-",and i hate dying in bad manners,so in conclusionnnnnnnn,i should to mug now,bb!

2008-09-08T22:09:00.001+08:00

my god,had my first syf piece prac today,it was super duper ultra difficult,cause i couldnt sideread fast enough....grrrrr,u see,im noob,gona work hard!

2008-09-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

lol,i was supposed to update longlong ago but i was just not feeling like it.....so from today on wards....i shall start