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Thursday, July 30, 2009
Today's maths and science was a breeze... hope that the scores are like the rainbows high up in the sky.....
After sch on the MRT,with shiyao.............. we saw this RJ guy taking the reserved seat which was meant for the elderly........ then without thinking,or maybe with some thinking,i said:鄙视他............
Then when he was going to alight......which is also when i was going to alight........he came to find me....and then asked me why i said that and if i had a problem with him seating on the seat........then i said no then he say that it is an insult to him then i said sorry then he warned us to mind our language in public areas.
then i alighted.......he alighted too.................. i felt a bit angry....not that i am angry towards him....i was angry at myself,of not being able to express my opinions properly and i was angry that i could not find weakness in his questions immediately and state my views clearly and i was super angry at my weak behavior........... which doesnt reach the standard expected......
of course,i am not the kind of person who talk nonsense on public transport. However it was just because i happened to see a show on the television afew days ago....which talked about a korean guy who went to singapore and was shocked to see the reserved seats taken by people who do not need it as much.................. he was saying : in korea it was like if theres no elderly on the train,the reserved seats remains empty....no one will even seat there no matter how crowded it is on the train........
so why am i writing this?I wrote this just to remind myself that i am going to research more about the reserved seatings on the MRT and i am going to come up with a counter argument ........not that i feel 不爽,its just that i feel that i should know more about that area of knowledge since i feel that i would need them...since i don't know...
how i wish i could be critical about it and show him my stand in this matter and just let this thing end... but i was too lousy and weak.... in other words, 不堪一击........... AS IF I WANT THAT TO HAPPEN!I AM NOT THE KIND OF PEOPLE WHO ARE SO PROUD AND THEY THINK THAT THEY ARE THE BEST IN THE WORLD. IM JUST SAD THAT I COULDNT ACHIEVE WHAT I WANT TO...COULDNT LIVE UP TO THE EXPECTATIONS OF MANY..... COULDNT BE WHAT I WANT TO BE.
AS IF I WANT ALL THIS TO HAPPEN... I DONT.....I NEED HELP,GUIDENCE AND SOME SUPPORT,PROBABLY,i am the support+hope=victory kind of person....... and i haven had hope since pri6 and i could really feel the support anymore................. i just need someone to tell me what i should do,to guide me,give me a push and i will soar!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friends always said that i wasnt serious in my work and i give crap for my homework and i dont study for my tests and i dont care about studying and thats why i dont do well
And this,is not true...not true at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i couldnt do the homework because i did not know how to do them and i dont want to give lousy retarded ans on my paper...................... i dont study for my tests????how would you know?I study a lot for the tests........its just that because i lack the basic understanding i was slower than everyone else when we start! trust me i dont want to be like that,i want to be the old me again.....for those who dont know me in the past,pls pardon me for my inability to explain it to you,cuz i am currently feeling like flaming,i could even feel that the flame in me is burning my heart every second.......... the kind of bad and lousy and powerless feeling, you wont like it
i suppose i should be gone,cuz i still have to get the OC presentation ready+ the RE stuff+ the geog stuff,all by today+theres tuition today and i have to go....cuz i need to get myself refreshed and get some hope to transform them into courage to face my work.....and the scoldings from the teachers.......perharps i could ask mrs selvan about the argument on the reserved seating thingy lastly,bye....................................................................
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 4:07 PM
Sunday, July 26, 2009
After so long,im back to post again.......... cuz there is just too much emoness........... so i have to empty them....and my choice is here.
i felt really retarded today,having to finish a geog PT without a slight idea of how to do it....then i switched on the com....and suddenly, thought of the game which i used to play..... which is sadly....maplestory........ a game which had took up most of my pri6 year, a game which had guided me through the super boring days........
i visited the site,and there were many changes.. it made me flash back again,of those happy moments .i remember,when i first play the game,i felt the magical feeling,it enlightened me.i remember,the first time,i got cheated in the game,of the only few thousands of mesos i had....the kind of desperation and anger i felt....i remember,the first time when i found a really good friend online..... the kind of feeling was what i had never had. It made me reflect upon the past,of my pri sch life, how wonderful it is,i always had a dream,to pursue the best of the best.What happened to it?I dont know.
i always loved the game,if not for the many things which is too true in life...power,greed,rudeness and many more........even job employment.
thats that...i dont want to talk more about it...... cya everyone. if you could get me to face the game with no more pain.
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 1:55 PM
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Yo!
hello, i am haocheng,also known as ziddaneLegend ,im a from RI
im in RIMB batch of twenty11 and i plays flute
dream to be the best(doesnt seem possible)
wishes to be the best also.......wana know more,pls add my msn:haocheng@singnet.com.sg(you have to tell me who u r first!)
