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Thursday, May 28, 2009
i wonder what should i post?... there r some stuff which i shouldnt post and thee are also stuff which i dont want to post....so.....what could i do then?
had maths tuition 2day...the teacher not bad....but he is just too messy...ops...i mean his handwriting is messy,not his hair......
then while waiting for french teacher to come....i went to search and compare some different model of handphone. cuz my mom want to change our phones plans............. then in the end i couldnt decide on which one to choose...... then i was told that only 5 out of the 16 models are 0 dollars....and the rest mah ...those while i really liked were like more than 200+ and that of cuz...is too much for me....
i asked my mom for her opinion, she told me i could buy which eva i like,i felt really troubled, i want to get the model i like but at the same time not to make my mom feel burdened.......... in the end,i just told her:" 妈，这几款我都挺喜欢的，你帮我选吧， 等我回去的时候在告诉我，给我一个惊喜。”
i felt quite weird when i said this...cuz of this:希望越大，失望越大， so i just decided that i should just make it a surprise for myself, which eva one she chose......... at least better than my 4 year old phony rit?thats a + point....^^
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 3:33 PM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
argh......just come back first day... cannot practise flute liao........... got a big pimple growing on the edge of my lips.....just press my lips on the lip plate hurts like some.....
i wonder what happened in sch?.......
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 7:54 PM
...so im in china now...and i still can use blogger...so....Hahahaa i can use blogger in china hahahaha.. ya...basically....i cant say anything that happened cuz it will make johnson 's mind go pervertic...... not as if his mind is not pervertic at the moment currently... haha....so bb....
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 6:27 PM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
so...i will be flying in a few hours time so...cya everyone....wont be posting in china...cuz they block blogger............. wish me good luk and enjoy my trip. ty..bb
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 8:04 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
frens are getting emo...what could i say? ...just dont feel bad lar...enjoy urself,life is still long and unknown...anything is possible...though i am also one of those who cannot no see through the veil of life.............. i can just say,when every hope has left you,theres still me,someone hu share the same problem and could understand yet could become strong when he need to,to help his frens out,to take the responsiblity..............................................
Legend.
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 10:12 PM
while it was CS lesson some day ago,a fren was surfing the net against Mrs chor's permission... like anyone doesnt do that lor......
then he told me about Maplestory II................. 3D and stuff.....and said that he is getting a bit interested in trying the new ver out.................. and ask me if i wana play wif him....what i said is obvious,NO!......i told him that i was bored of that game and i hav lose hope in it...................... but the truth us actually........................................
It reminds me of some sweet innocent but yet painful and stuff like that which happened in the game in the past.........
this time,unforturnately,its still abt relationship, however,this is online relationship and there isnt the love thing,theres just a sense of belonging and frenship and companionship.......
P6 year,i started playing MS...when we first met, we were both that kind ultra noob ppl.....who got chased around by ribbon piggys...zzz isnt it?
we were just in the buddy list cuz we din both to delete each other...and the next time we meet.... was after lv30...liife was great wif her(guys,for those who are thinking how i noe that she is a her, i tell u,i noe her ok>?)everyday,train together,then get lazy liao just slack around and say sweet words to each other and encourage each other and i felt really fulfilled those times....but i always need to prepair for PSLE so...sadly,i paused maple for 2months,aug to oct....i told her that and she said i should study hard and focus on the exam.......... and she will be waiting to congratulate me ........
so.....oct,i come back....i was lv44 and she was..... lv70+......omg....aug to oct....from lv 30+ to 70+ she no longer train at the usual place,cuz the place is too noob for her though we still meet once in a while.
i was determined to minimize the lv gap between us so that once again i could be back wif her......... for 6 days,the only week i hav before leaving for holiday,i played at least 15hs a day,from 10pm til 6.30pm,then bath and go to sch with myself sleepy. i managed to lv till lv 50.....yet still such a large gap. then,tat was a night which i dreaded.....cuz i felt betrayed,or is it really betrayal?cuz there isnt actually no love?i dono...i just felt hurt.....some whr some how.
she came to find me,instead of us meeting in the fm. she told me,she found a new bf,someone who could train wif her,help her and he live close to her house.. and yar....i cant remember anything else..................
i felt.....pure dread,it felt as if earth just stopped spinning and my life just lost itself........lv difference again....why???
FROM THEN ON,I DECIDED not to be a noob,who is powerless and is unable to decided for himself........... i want power! i want strength!
since then,we were still frens but it was never the same again she could feel it too,cuz i was cold towards her and tried to avoid her as much as possible. she tried to made it up,by helping in wat eva ways she could,however it just wont be the same..........
eventually,i stopped contacting her though i din delete her from my msn.people change as time passes,let the fond memories settle in my mind as we mature and learn the way.
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 12:18 AM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
French is over...Geo is over... and now wif open house approaching... i feel that life is over too...
Where is my point of life?i want to do well in all my subjects and...um ya...flute also... but now...im aready so suck...low GPA... low EQ...low frenship lv and lousy flute playing... im fact...it couldnt be counted as playing flute... it should be called making noises using flute... and this is a very shameful thing...but what can i do?
i suppose it wound be the best just to work hard and put in ur best effort for everything in life and just let it be as it is.... But i cant....i never want to let things pass as it is... i want to,and i have to do my very best and achieve what i want to achieve........!!!!!!!!
so...in conclusion....haocheng leads a very normal life however,he face many problems which others would never face but anyway...i also dont have some of the problems which others might face...... anyway.....i am disorientated ....what is my goal of life?
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 7:15 PM
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Y am i writing this post? cuz i want to write something.... tat was lame.....but what im going to talk abt is......sniping^^
lol,after readng a certain Ebook on sniper ,i began to feel the precision inside me stirring....it is a story of a noob guy who wanted to become a general..................... then he was like........super noob.............. even worse than me................................... then as i read,i took down certain tips... then try it out on wolfteam.......not bad sia.....i could now manage to get a 1:1 kill death ratio while using sniper rifle full time........compared to my previous record of 2:7 kill-death...........................
it seem to hav helped.....but hu noes???
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 4:24 PM
Thursday, May 7, 2009
today i am doing a reflection on myself.............. its time to forget about the past and let my past memories go....im sure that they dont feel good being forced to stay wif me all this time too.......
Thanks Mr Leo,for sharing your experience and teach me how to carry on wif life.......................... how to forget and look at the brighter side......... I knew all this all along,i suppose it's just that i din want to do this..................................................
Thanks Linda,for the all these memories............ which accompanied me for a long portion of my life.......thanks,it is now time to let them go,to whr they truly belong.........its time to let them roam through the universe,cuz the memories are alive,too Bye memories^^,i will miss u,but i will not dewell upon u.........................................................................
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Though i mentioned that u forget and everything. but then i must still say.....i wont be back to normal (primary sch de focused,confident,hardworking, cheerful,loyal,courageous haocheng) So i will still be a bit weird lar......dont mention anything to do wif relationship to me while i recover..............
It is really weird that it is thursday and i dont hav to go for tuition..........so strange................................ and i wont be seeing aunty jenifer until end of june
ok...so after reading johnson's blogpost...... i realised something...................................... johnson was appologising for his mistakes for the past.....but i am only going to focus on today....
he said that he should not have just sent 6 members from RIMB in to listen without consulting the rgssb ppl........
but what i hav to say is...though it appeared that it has got nothing to do wif me............ however,i must admit.....i was think of the same thing as him at that moment............ and it appeared to me...that nothing was wrong as i tot that the guy was arguing for only rimb...so i tot that if they want to get in...just get someone to help them lor...
then after that...i realised that my thinking was very wrong when i see the disappointment on the rgsb peep's face.......i quite bad for being so selfish......though iwasnt one of the 6 who went in.......
now since johnson has brought this up..... i reckon that i should reflect on this too... i shouldnt hav been so inconsiderate....... though i wasnt one of those who had the power to make the choice......................... but still....my think was wrong.................. i hope that the world could forgive me.... though i din really do any harm to it by thinking inconsiderately..........................
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 9:25 PM
this is another post which i posted for batch blog...... so i think why not i post it here too?? i try my best to mug bah.................
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 7:39 PM
****before reading the post,pls be noticified that i have uploaded disco party III recordings on the e group........this is the only piece which i could find........hope that it is useful......................
Ok....so um.....rj got GOLD..........is that suppose to be good or bad?i suppose it just mark the end of their syf journey................i hope Mr Oura will not feel disappointed or wateva........
well.....only 5 of our batchmates turned up.....attendance was bad.....but anyway,compared to sec3s we were better......zzz....cuz we got more hardcore members^^i suppose.......0.o?
but then......non of us got the chance to watch them perform....................cuz the tickets ran short....... it was really a great act by those who gave up their chance to watch rj play so that the others could hav a chance to enter....though what u guys did was just to follow seniors' instructions........................
anyway.....i feel screwed..........i dont believe that i could achieve the 3.6 now...............and my holiday plans are settled......27thMay go back china.........until 23th june come back............so i guess i will miss most of the holiday pracs......that sucks........but well then.....too bad......its almost time to say goodbye to the wonderful record of 100% attendance which i have been keeping......... looks like this year cannot make it for 100% again............................i hope that by the time i come back i wont be lagging behind everyone...........cya............................................ haocheng
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 7:39 PM
Friday, May 1, 2009
I shall post more info abt my dream.... i dreamt of something that is very weird um...as if dreams arnt weird in the first place...
it has got something to do wif arjun and some other ppl........which is a bit the impossible.......never the less................
then i was screaming for that person when suddenly..i found myself awake to the sound of my alarm.........
then i felt very empty and lost and some other random feeling........just like something has been taken away from me.............
so this is all alr........no more xtra info than these online...cuz u noe?the influence is bad.......... and sometimes i also dont want unwanted others to know it before i choose to tell them..........
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 4:32 PM
i woke up wif a strange dream tis morning.... its abt her again...........losing her is painful.... it jsut that i had been trying to convince myself that it never happened........when it is true.......
will post more after band prac.ty
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 7:25 AM
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Yo!
hello, i am haocheng,also known as ziddaneLegend ,im a from RI
im in RIMB batch of twenty11 and i plays flute
dream to be the best(doesnt seem possible)
wishes to be the best also.......wana know more,pls add my msn:haocheng@singnet.com.sg(you have to tell me who u r first!)
