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Thursday, April 30, 2009
this is what i posted on the batch blog and this is also what i want to say.............................so i just pasted it in,.....................................................................................:
hi guys, haocheng here. as you guys are reading this,(morning,1st may2009) i wound be practicing and reflecting on my mistakes. hope that after you guys read this,you guys wound buck up and work harder....in the clever way,wif your brains....or we no ned stay in RIMB anymore.......... ppl in RIMB put in the effort wif their brains working at the same time.........
it is really sad to see our conductor,Mr Oura and our seniors being so sad.........isnt it?Mr Oura conducted RIMB for 20+years,since he was 20+?half of his life time and most likely all his hard work and effort and time had been put into this band.The band is just like his child,he watch the band grow,and improve and everything............and it is really sad for him to see this child of his to be in this state that we r in now... isnt it?
our seniors,it is really hard on them.....being the leading batch which broke the 'legecy' of golds..........they want that to happen?They din and that was the reason for them being harsh on some of us...in fact...it is not really harsh.........according to kirk.....they had worse last time.
So guys,for Mr Oura,for our seniors,for the band,for the school,for our teachers in charge,and lastly,for our own honour,our pride and our sense of achievement!Cuz we will be seniors in 4months time and we would the the people our juniors look up to.
We must work hard;work smart,we are not only cca mates, we are not only batch mates,we are not even brothers,we are more than that!We are a whole,everyone is vital and if any of us were not on form,the whole batch suffers.For that, pls guys,if you hav any problems,just talk to us,any one of us we would be more than happy to listen to you.
Liangpu,im sorry that i always held a wrong impression of you since sec1,though i never showed it.......i want to tell you something,that is:we are together,all the time,everyone is there to support oneanother.One for all;All for one. You hav anything on ur mind,just look for us.
pls,giv a little more attention to band,just spare a bit of your personal time and study time and slack time and what ever. i dont even play FPS games now though i am deep into them. and my results arnt good too.....but when it is band,i come for every practise and i willl make the wffort to concentrate on the music i am suppose to play and forget abt how tiring the day was and how much homework i have on that day and how many lousy results did i get and how many scoldings from my subject teachers and stuff.... i would just concentrate on band,only band,nothing else........ anything other than band....leave till practise over.................
though we r in such a sorry state now.............that doesnt mean that we r doomed......we could make the difference,we r not sec4 but hu set the rule that only sec4s could make the important difference?we cant just watch the sec4s and 3s struggle,we hav to do our best to try to help by playing better,so that we could lift a bit of the burdens they have on their shoulders.
We still hav another 1year+ before we reach the point whr our fate would be decided.....the next SYF.....if we could redeem our selves depended on it....and we only hav 1year+....not still hav 1year+..... its ONLY!!!!!
some of us never try,or never try hard enough......then they giv up, saying that they could not do it,they cant,.....wateva.....this is not true not true at all! I share this example wif u guys arh...just now,i was wif liangpu walking down the mrt station,then the train arrive and we though that we couldnt make it.....but we decided to run for it and we managed to board it before the doors close..........see this?we din noe that we could do it......we tried our best and we succedded,if we though that we couldnt and we just let it go.....then we would hav to wait for 5 more min for the next one.......u get me?
though it may seem impossible,believe me....it is possible! IT IS POSSIBLE!!!!!!do your very best and we can make the difference, we could giv RIMB a gold wif honours ! we can!!!!!!!
i am a person who dont like to giv up,if i dont fight to the last second,it wont be me............i always run for the MRT at kranji station in the morning after taking the bus there from my house....sometimes i got in,some times i din, but what is really important here is that,got in or not,we all do our best. In our band 's case......i dont see why we could not get the gold wif honours in 1year+ time.............
suppose thats all i want to say..........hope you guys would be more bonded and more enthusiastic at pratice on mon.......good nite.....gosh....writing this post for almost 40 min liao.....zzz i still must go for morning prac 2mr....CYA
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 11:56 PM
Sunday, April 26, 2009
since morning 2day i had been muggiing.....cuz 2mr got maths TA + OC formative + chinese compo....if dont mug i want go die is it??????
then after that mom went out...then got free time ....using com wif out her permission......im a bad boy.....^^.... then i get emo........what can i do abt it?..............
aiya...very tired for no reason,i just felt tired and sleepy without any known cause............ i feel stupid............cuz i slept through maths lesson again....and i shouldnt b doing that.... cuz maths is my worst subject............
i felt so tired today...went back home straight aft sch then after bathing,i played flute and read E-book until 6+pm....i tried this piece called Castle in the sky-天空之城,it is really nice but then...i am seriously in no mood to play that kind of emo piece cuz i was aready emo enough and i din want to hear any more emo music...then i kept my flute after some basic cleaning,thanks to my emo nature....sorry flutey ..............i must try not to let my emoness take over me when it comes to your cleaniness...
i feel super tired....my eye lids kept falling while my brain kept on logging off automatically like someone's business................my business.......... so more it is lesson time........2day i almost fall asleep during 3 lessons.....3 out of 6...dam pro rit?
first period...eng...talking abt lit...100% brain shut off one.........nvm,after that...period b4 lunch...Geo...though i convinced myself that i loves Geo and i want to take it as RA next year ...i still fall asleep........=.=" lastly....maths after lunch...cant help it sia...... just after lunch......a period which i dont like and the things teacher teach is hard to understand + stomach full of rice...100% slp one.................... sad for the teachers taking the aft lunch period.. they had such a bad time and they shall continue to have a bad time unless the sch abolish the lunch break.........lol...=.=""
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 7:29 PM
Friday, April 17, 2009
Oh gosh...2day went for band prac.....first ever band prac which is so fun....the sec2s were having a batch practise of centuria in the band rm then after that i went out for a bit of sectionals then later philemon told me to try the picolo.... then i play...in the end....from end of this year on ...i hav to play picolo...unless johnson or philemon show some mercy to me by letting me play flute.........cuz i like flute more,longer,silverish ,beautiful sound and it dont look weird cuz picolo too small aready,.....also...i scared that i not good enough....cuz picolo ned very good player...and i am not good enough....i cannot play in tune,on time nice tone,my hands could not move fast enough... it is just that i could hit high G in my first try mah ......besides this i got no other advantages......
Now i feel very worried.........i scared i will not be good enough....i was like pushed over my limit when i hit the G lar........am i good enough?Cant philemon/yidong/nicholas play it?............but i guess i dont hav a choice,do i?Just hope that while i practise playing picolo next time,i could still hav time for my flute..................................
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 7:59 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
i got my PR1 today...that was expected....avg 3.2 so sad i couldnt reach the requirments for a new flute...sob...still got much more to improve on.... Band prac is resuming 2mr.....great....but now i more worried abt my NAFFA and upcoming CCTs ....for the past few years i had been aiming for the best A result i could achieve in NAFFA test........ but this year...i am only aiming for an avg C gold.. so u see?this is my standard drop....i am unfit..... dam it....too bad...i went to sch councilor for an appointment set by my teacher...who is worried that i am stressing myself too much.......and she is correct.................Lets see what are the things that i am worried for...........
* emo over certain people..... * worried that i could not get good results for an RA subject * no GPA 3.6=no flute * my flute playing is not improving * RE....my grp is screwed...i am currently supporting the whole grp * um...emo over certain people.....i just cant forget...u noe? * NAFA is next week and i am still not fit enough...
So u see?All this adds up to my pressure........... recently...i posted this question:how to confess to the girl you like? on yahoo answers.... then i got so much rubbish and crap which does not help at all........is this the end of it?............... i still thinks of her................................................
o ya...i told this to the councilor too...then we were discussing what is it that made me like her so much then after the session...i felt better but then,the next day,i felt emo again...as i was thinking of is it because she cared for me that made me like her?Or what is it? i really dono...theres just a sence of energy and hope and happiness when i was with her.i wonder why?
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 10:25 PM
Saturday, April 11, 2009
I am emo
I have been emoing alot theseadays....and i cant help it. i must admit that i am a very emotional ppl and i can really draw strength from my happy memories but at the same time i could be really sad due to my unhappy memories/bitter memories.
Today i went to church....Chinese one....i felt very happy, a sense of being home with them.....all of them from the Chinese department are from china.....and all the peeps from the eng department is white.....the church is pretty new lar.....only established in sept 2008.really new rit?
Anyway...when i was listening to this part which is talking abt what is the most important thing and who is the most important person,without knowing,tears had been sliding down on my face while i was drawn into my memories of that time.............I felt really sad.....i understand that it will be best if i can just forget everything...but i cant,cuz i am too emotional a person to forget such things..........emotions were great boosts,but that was long long ago.
There was a point of time,when just a smile from her could make me last a whole 2 days high-spirited. However now.... i am already to hurt to be so naive.What i could only manage it to be happy for a few mins and let myself be overwhelmed by emoness again.........
Um...guess this is why love is an double edged sword...or dagger...what ever! cuz i benefited from love but at the same time,i was hurt by love and it took far more than what i have gained or maybe not. Maybe if theres no love i might not have been good enough to go to RI...but if theres no love at least i would not have to be so emo...which is causing my studies to go down also.........so....love or no love.......i dono..... I couldnt choose the other path since i tried this one or the world would be filled up by successful ppl who tried a few different paths of life so that they could become successful.....
But i really feel that i need her......she is someone whom gives me the feeling of secureness and made me work hard....i dono why am i saying this............
But at the same time,i noe..........we hav chosen different paths of life and most likely we will never be crossed on our journey of life again.......how sad...but life is like that...isnt it?Maybe i am just a sour grape who do like to see or even imagine her with a boyfriend who smokes....her current BF...............it hurts my heart............but i am in no position to stop her.........Who i am to her? a no body now.......
So....i guess i will have to allow her to chose for herself bah..... hope she will turn back in time
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 10:59 PM
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Today i had a very weird dream........but i wonder if i should share it online.....cuz i scared got negative effect.....then i dead liao.........
So.....after considering.....i decided.....not to wirte abt it but if u r 2 curious....then just ask me for a copy of the story,i hav it in txt file.^^
i am now emoing over the fact that i dono how to put music on my blog....im stupid i noe....i was never into IT stuff....unless u count games lar of cuz,....then i cannot put emo music on my emo blog to make the visiters feel the emoness as soon as they enter the blog............... anyone can teach me how to do it? but my taste of music will be sure criticized............... i will put music 1 as Your are sunshine.....itas ultra emo for me....cuz when i hear it i think of the pri5 camp which was such a sweet but painful memory.
then second song i put 隐形的翅膀cuz it is ultra anti emo i always listen to it when im emo then after listening i will calm down and feel cheerful.........then the 3rd song is dono yet...i got alot of 3rd choice...........
pls some one tell me how to put the music player on my blog... i tried many ways...none worked................
another thing.....i dont want johnson to leave RIMB...sobsob.. we still hav so much to learn from him..........he is like our hope and expectation......its like when we couldnt do something,he could always be there for us and he givs us hope and inspiration to work harder...........no!!!!i want johnson!!!!!!!!!!!!(im childish =.=")
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 9:44 PM
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
o ya....i forgot one more thing.....
The reasons which we should work very hard to improve: (in no order of importance)
FOR MR OURA! Who spend so much time with us,encouraged us and helped us and many many more...
FOR RAFFLES INSTITUTION,the school which we loved,which is our second home,we must bring glory to our school.
FOR RIMB AND OUR COUNTLESS SENIORS...(basically anyone who was in RIMB before is our senior...) maybe their consecutive gold has been broken,but we must not let them down....though we all noe that we played very well today.........i seriously dono what the judges want ......
MRS TAN,MS KEK AND MR JEE---they had spend a lot of effort on us and we shouldnt disapoint them....
For ourselves,we all want to make GREAT music...dont we?????????
i guess with this i conclude everything....i feel dam lame sia.....arjun and kelvin tot u guys are regular posters of this blog??????why after syf no one even said a word???? i got 3 test 2mr sia......i still bothered to post! U guys better post hor....... or i shall see u in sch....humhum....
legendary Z
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 8:49 PM
Guys,we got silver. maybe some of us are disappointed,sad,heart-broken relieved,what eva....... but what is really important is what Mr oura said...... we play music to entertain the audience ,not to compete wif other schools.
So what if we got a silver,i actually believe that its better this way.Now we only have the burning desire to improve and not like the previous batches....they had to worry about what will happen if they break RIMB's record....now we can start afresh and we will start a new legacy^^.(UNDER THE CONDITION THAT WE WORK REALLY HARD....MY TUNING IS VERY SCREWED.....) So.....LETS REMEMBER THE TIME WHICH WE GOT A SILVER AND IMPROVE ON OURSELVES SO THAT WE CAN DO BETTER NEXT TIME,2011...WE SHALL START THE LEGACY OF CONSECUTIVE GWHS!!
ANYWAY,WE ALL DID WELL TODAY, STAND TALL ;STAND PROUD.
RIMB,THE FLAMES LIVE ON! haocheng love Miss Yamaha 221 ^^
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 8:47 PM
Monday, April 6, 2009
um...i m back....longlonglong time never post liao... cuz i dono what to write and also i am a bit lazy and i am also sick...last night and this whole day i was dammmm sick.....caught a super flu....unlucky sia... then missed first period...chinese....felt ok lar cuz i slept for an xtra hour today....tats y i can recover so fast...i am suddenly uncertain again......if the band could achieve GWH....at first i tot we were going to break the record no matter how much we try.......... then....i found out that many band got GWH.....and some of them are of not so good standard 2 yrs ago.....so i tot we will get GWh no matter what....... but today....i felt uncertain again................................ i felt a bit freaked after listening to xinmin's fledermaus ....it was awesome and i am not even sure if we have ever achieved that kind of standard during our pracs(most likely we had done it before.....^^) ........also the other GWH band's set pieces were great too.... i wonder if we could make it...............it will be a shame not to do so...........but im not sure abt the others. my tone is wavering (some more i dont even hav a good tone) and my flu made my tuning problem worse cuz my brain was jammed............due to the block nose........it felt damn bad...............Lastly.......let us pray to god so that the band could do our best at SCH and enjoy the event.................
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 10:26 PM
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
I am certain that i felt shocked when mr oura recieved the call and told us the news......but......i dono what to say lar....anyway,if they hav done their best................. then they hav done well...theres still next competition, concert,and life doesnt stop because SYF2009 wasnt a good one,what has passed is now a history............. i am not so sure what to say anymore........ btw,kelvin and some other guys came up wif sunday practise.......its a great idea...and i add on to the fact that we can bring homework and help each other after we finish our practise...but sadly....we r the only batch that is going to try it and most member of the batch arnt even interested......if got 4 ppl wana go then i also go wif them that makes it 5......which is a big number... duh....five is a big number???is haocheng retarded.? anyway we cant do much....this so called sunday prac will just be a tone improvment day as there will be no seniors and we can also use this time to catch up with our work and also.....we can discuss on what piece to play on investure ...kelvin suggested flight of the bumble for fun.....but i thought why not.....but im sure we r not good enough....we cant even play the notes fast enough ....no ned say anything abt in tune liao..... ai...how i wish when we r sec 4 investure time we can play flight of the bumblebee....not full tempo also nvm as long as we can play...and sound nice.................... cya bb...............good job RGSSB,though u din get Gold but dont be upset or disappointed cuz there will always be the next competition and SYFs....and what has been passed is SERIOUSLY history... nevertheless TKGS......wow GWH.....great work............ NANHUA din get gold ...again....tats sad,but its ok i suppose....just work harder or the next one..................
As for RIMB...........i shall not comment until we get our results next week at 5.30pm on wed 8th of april..........
LIVING.out.of.REALITY; 9:00 PM
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Yo!
hello, i am haocheng,also known as ziddaneLegend ,im a from RI
im in RIMB batch of twenty11 and i plays flute
dream to be the best(doesnt seem possible)
wishes to be the best also.......wana know more,pls add my msn:haocheng@singnet.com.sg(you have to tell me who u r first!)
